Set Free from Heroin addiction.

I was brought up by two wonderful parents who taught me right from wrong and like my brother and sister I was taught about God, the Bible and the Church. For 8 or 9 years I would go for lessons once a week to the Church where the Church would give further instruction and teaching on God and the Bible. I had a very happy childhood and a wonderful family.

Everything had been fine in life, I never liked school but it was never a serious problem. I was involved in Sport outside of school and had made some much older friends who were also involved in the sport. When I was seventeen, and started  Grade 11, my teachers changed. I had two teachers who I think were good at what they knew but could not really teach as the whole classes marks were dropping.

The teachers insisted we stay for extra lessons after school but since I never liked school and I suppose it was my age, I refused and I was not the only one. I valued my time after school hours. The teachers started putting on the pressure and I started to shut down. I refused to work with the teachers and things just got worse to where I absolutely hated school. My outlet was my sport, my horse and of course my older friends.

I used to hear my friends talking about the clubs they had been to on the weekend and the odd Rave. They used to joke about getting wired. It all sounded good and lots of fun. These seemed like normal people having fun, no one looked like a drug addict and anyway it was just ecstacy that they were using. I was unhappy at school and bored but my friends were having fun and were cool. I approached my one friend and asked if I could go to a club with them and bring another two friends my age. We wanted to try ecstacy and try ecstacy we did. We went to a club took half a pill and about half an hour later I was in heaven. You could not take the smile off my face, my mind and body felt so incredibly amazing. There were no worries or cares, everything had been FIXED. How can something that makes you feel so good be so wrong and bad. There was nothing wrong with it, I thought people don’t know what they are missing. Another 45 min and we dropped the second half of the pill. We went home after the night of clubbing and I stayed at a friends house.

When I woke up in the morning I thought whats wrong, I had never ever felt so bad and thought, what have I done. The feeling went away and all I could think of is how cool I was and when we would go clubbing again. There was no addiction, I was not craving I just wanted to go out and have fun with pills. Thats where a huge problem lies, there is no instant physical addiction to ecstacy. “I can stop it at any time,” you tell yourself and because of this and the great fun that you have you WILL use it again and again. Its all a LIE.

My friends started taking us to the big drug clubs. They were the best. You could buy anything there and everyone, I mean everyone was wired. You could get pills, squares (LSD), coke and heroin. My friends were trying to control how often we went but I wanted none of it. I would decide when I wanted to go and so I did. I would go on and off with some other friends and we would just use ecstacy. This carried on for about a year and a half. I ended dropping out of school, I hated it and could not function properly because of the pills, I think I became impossible at school.

I went overseas and did some courses to do with horses, came back and started working. All was great made a new friend and there was no clubbing for a few months. I deceided to start clubbing again at one of the club’s New Years Parties, it would last for three days, but one day would be fine for us. I wanted to introduce my friend to the scene. We went to the club bought pills and all was good. He was amazed.

We met and made a new group of friends at the club. We would go out to Cafe’s during the day or evening on weekends and old clubbing and school friends would turn up with some guys from school, they had also been using for quite a long time. I discovered that these guys were dealing and I could buy from these guys for really cheap. One thing  led to another, I made new friends and contacts. They came clubbing with us and our new friends from the New Years Party. I bought pills for everone, I was the man.

I was told about candy flippin, take a pill and a square (LSD) hits you in waves. Rush then you see things, rush, see more things. I thought it was not working. Then I felt the pills working, went to the toilet and noticed beautiful patterns on the wall, the wall was breathing in and out, the cubicle never had a door but the walls closed behind me, I turned and ran out. I felt the pills again. Went and sat, speakers were doing backflips, the buildings around the club were moving to the music (open dance floor). Amazing!!! Everything seemed great. Life was good on drugs and bad when off it. It started to take hold of me. I was interested in some of the girls in our group, I was confused from the drugs and had mixed feelings, all I wanted to do was go out and party with them. I would buy the drugs and control who goes clubbing and when. If I had the drugs the girls were with me as well as the other friends.

THE REAL TROUBLE STARTS

As with all substances, the more often you use the more you need to take the next time in order to get the same high. The drugs had created a lie for me, everything was a lie and false, my thoughts were not my own they were being manipulated. I could not think straight. I was confused. I was in competition with friends over who was clubbing the most and using the most pills. I got up to five pills in a day. I was not just using weekends but during the week, three or four times a week. (Note that one full pill could kill a first time user) My system stopped feeling the rush of the pills I was just buzzing. I was told to crush a few of the pills and to snort them. This I did and it worked on maybe two occasions. From snorting some were pushed up the rectum. This also worked once or twice. I needed something to make me rush to make me feel good, I tried Ketamine an ingredient used in horse sedatives, this did’nt work. I went on to cocaine. I felt invincible and on another level, one without real or true emotion. When it wore off I was pulling at my hair, in a temper and almost crying for more, call the dealer and order. I felt better just knowing more was coming. Coke was not for me, I was taught how to smoke crack cocaine, IT DID NOTHING, I felt nothing. My system was so messed up. The dealers were laughing at my face pulling and eyes hanging and rolling back even though I felt nothing. Lastly I was taught to smoke heroin. This was it, it is such a powerfull drug it overtook everything. My parents eventually found out and something like this can destroy a family.

Thanks to the love of my wonderful parents and family friends everone stood by me and gave me support. Thank you to the wonderful people who gave me councilling, and most of all, thank you to Jesus who spared my life and protected me through such a hell. Thank you for your love and caring. You were always there and I’m sorry for turning my back on you. GOD IS LOVE.

Please stay away from drugs, it all just starts with that first drug. Drugs are evil, they destroy your mind, your body and will finally destroy your soul. The devil uses you to get innocent people involved. There are huge networks of people and friends who are involved. Huge circles of friends overlap with other circles. When the drugs take hold you WILL steal, you will even consider doing crimes that will destroy your life and the lives of others without thinking or caring. Avoid drugs or stop using if you are a user. With drugs comes sexual immorality, stealing, lying, gays, lesbians, the list goes on. You become a puppet for the demons.

JESUS protected me and saved me from a terrible evil. Many many people die from drug overdoses or loose their lives to crime because of drugs. Listen to the people who are warning you.

PRAY, LOVE AND HOPE do not turn your backs on JESUS. JESUS is with you right now so let him in. He is your saviour and your protector from the evils of hell. At the end of the day YOU have the CHOICE. DO NOT leave yourself open for the pack of wolves who are there to devour you.

I am glad to say that tomorrow I have been clean for 8 years.

THANK YOU JESUS I LOVE YOU